unsent and unspoken
it had been a while, the sound of the keyboard a dusty memory from a girl she didn't know if she knew anymore. reflections had always been a tricky thing, trying to gain a sense of recognition from the face that stared back, always close but never enough, as if a clear plastic film hid her from full sight.
a certain peace came with the noise of the keyboard, a sense of calm as with each letter the words seemed easier to say. for so long there was a lack of direction, purpose, or even motivation to write again- what was there left to say?
but it seems there never needed to be a certain topic or purpose, not even an overall message. that was never the point. no it was about feeling, understanding and identifying emotions, about putting it all out into the universe with the small feeling that someone would read it- that someone could validate the way she was feeling. it wasn't about comments and indeed words of it in person felt uncomfortable and unnatural. the digital world existed in her head, it felt strange when it entered reality.
one day perhaps these words will come to haunt her, or perhaps they will just be a sombre memory of past feelings and emotions, a mere outline of that girl in the mirror.
' At the end of the day, when push comes to shove, all the layers are peeled back, excuses thrown out the window and technicalities ignored... you really were just a horrible friend '
'Stop letting yourself stop you from doing what you want. Live the life you want to live. Go to the beach, play the guitar. Learn how to surf or skate, fall madly and recklessly in love. Have food fights, late nights consumed with uncontrollable laughter and eat too much junk food. Form good habits, fall in love with yourself. Wake up every day and be excited to admire yourself in the mirror. Have naps during the day, listen to the music that makes you happy. Laugh so loudly that you make people turn, smile so widely that other people smile and be kind enough to inspire kindness in the darkest of days. Just stop letting the world stop you and do it'
'I put you on a pedestal. And how mighty of a fall it was.'
'I hope you realised that the grass isn’t greener on the other side.'
- O
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