a public letter

I can't put into words how happy your happiness makes me, to know that you are okay.

For a while I thought I had lost you, that the darkness had taken you away, I could see you were struggling, your eyes were constantly filled with tears, your insides shaking. I spent days trying to help you forget, nights wondering what else I could do.

You were a fighter brought down, someone who fell into the arms of someone who didn't want to catch them. Your life became so complicated, messy and hard, and I couldn't do anything, just a bystander, left to watch from the sidelines.

I hate that someone made you feel that way, that a person so little could break the brightness of your soul into the smallest of pieces. I try to hold onto faith that everyone in this world is good and sometimes we all just make mistakes. But I spent so long watching you crumble, hoping that one day you would realise how far you had fallen, and how much he was breaking you. I made little attempts with words to convince you but I think you and I both knew you had to cut the chord yourself.

For some reason I thought that once it was over, you would transform back into the friend I first met. But life doesn't work that way, experiences change us and that's something that you've helped me learn. You needed time, time to grieve, think and hurt. And that was the hardest, letting you wallow in the darkness, feel the sadness and anger and pain. I hate seeing people who have so much love and strength fall apart.

I am so proud of you for surviving because that's what you did. Life seems to be especially harsh to you sometimes and I can never take away the pain you've suffered through. But I can attempt to shower you in adoration, love and support, to let you know how strong and capable you truly are.

You have so much strength and your persistence inspires me everyday. Your talent is out of this world and whilst you may not know where you are headed I want you to know that your ability to live everyday is enough. You are more than enough.

You have so much power and control of your own life. Take your time, discover yourself and learn to love yourself again. You have been through so much and parts of you are so broken that I don't think you will ever be able to piece them together again. But that's okay, you must accept it and simply focus on rebuilding yourself. This is your chance to become who you want to be. Don't let what has happened to you define how the rest of your life will span out. The Sun shines on you everyday, you just have to be open enough to see it.

I’m so happy to see you finally blooming again. You been reborn, unburdened of weeds and given  another chance to start over. I can’t wait to see you thrive and grow.

The word proud does not justify how I feel about who you are becoming. You are such a bright light, and through every adversity you continue to get stronger.

My only hope for you is true happiness, the kind that is contagious. The world is truly yours and I only hope one day you begin to realise it.

Endless love,

O