purely pandemic

a documentation of history in the making

For so long, I cried out for more time. I wished for more days, more hours, more nothing.

These past few weeks have been a mixture of highs and lows, of convincing myself that nothing has changed, whilst facing the reality that it has.

Laziness and procrastination has been the biggest enemy, thrown into the depths of self learning and distancing.

I haven't written a lot since it all started, for it seemed pointless to write about anything non-pandemic related and the thought of writing about what was happening didn't inspire me in any way. It seems unjust to write about anything else, to worry about small issues such as an assignment or whether someone has texted you back. It seems irrational, petty.

Perhaps this will be the historical event for our generation, our world war which shifts into effect so many more movements, complications and consequences. The butterfly effect after all.

It seems like in a crisis, there is no perfect way to respond. Each person will argue a different perfect, and whilst there are obvious right and wrong actions, how we live out these rules can differ.

It feels strange to wake up and see a sky so blue, and a sun shining and feel as if I should live any different than what I am used to. When you look at the outside world, it doesn't seem too different, it feels odd to behave so.

Maybe this is just the world forcing us to wake up. Locking the doors to our homes, placing us in isolation to reflect, think and change.

Our lives are so fast-paced with us moving onto the next thing in a blink of an eye. We follow a strict timeline, work too much, live a throw away mantra and neglect the needed. We are blinded by what is happening around us, until it reaches our front door.

And it's come knocking. Perhaps the world is forcing us all to look up, to acknowledge, to come together and to take this time to reassess. We have been the pause we so desperately wanted, a period in which to quite literally isolate.

But what if this is our lives now, what if we just learn to live like this, the start of a life lived indoors, of no social contact. What if this year taken from me, means I loose out on so much more, that I loose a life I could've had, loose a person I could have become.

You realise how much you took for granted, your freedom, physical contact, friends, everything.

There's not much else I have to say on the topic, for at the end of the day, it is just something we have to live with at the moment. We have to adjust, to put our safety and others first and learn to live in a new world, for the time being. It is difficult and it is hard, for some more than others. Everyone is facing their own struggles, so don't forget to check in on one another, and try to make the best of the hurdles that have been thrown in front of you. It's all you can do.

Hopefully this time allows me to focus and publish new content, and I want to disclaim I hope that it can be a distraction for you all, something to escape in for just a moment, rather than an ignorant disregard for what is happening in world.

O x